It has been quite a while since I have blogged.... thought I would have committed more to the process years ago, but somehow, time has managed to elude me....funny that it has though since I enjoy this so much.
There is just something so freeing about writing what's on your mind and in your heart.
I just sat and reviewed some of the blogs I had written previously and realized that a pattern has begun to exist. My relationship dominates these writings and so I am quite content with continuing to write and share on the subject.
Where are we now. Ironically, things have changed quite drastically for me in recent months. My focus on my relationship with my man has shifted to more of a focus on my relationship with Christ, which in and if itself has been a beautiful thing. In all honesty, to truly love someone else and pursue any reasonable level of happiness, you first have to love YOU and to me, what better way to begin that journey than by falling in love with the Creator...who divinely crafted you in His image and for His purpose. You learn so much about who you are by learning about WHY you are first. What is your purpose? Why was I created? To understand that you must seek to find your divine purpose for existence and then all things seem to just come together.
It's been a beautiful journey falling more in love than I have ever been...and having that love overlap from the spiritual realm to the earthly. I have found that as I have fallen more in love with Jesus and myself, it has made it so much less complex and inundating to love my significant other...as we pursue a life to be joined together in holy matrimony. It has only been in my study of the Word that I have come to understand why that is. Allow me to explain just a little.
When you seek Christ and all His ways, there are several things that change about your own character, or such has been the case with me. I have found that forgiveness seems to have gotten so much easier to grant because I reflect on my own deeds before hastily judging another's. Anxiety and worry about those things concerning the actions, motives and etc. outside of my control have decreased tremendously because my focus has shifted from attempting to "manage" to being "managed" by the Holy Spirit and understanding that some things are simply in God's will and extend far beyond my understanding, control and logical expectation. And most importantly, I understand that what the Creator has for me is for me, and while some things are for a lifetime (and that's not much), most things are for a season....that includes those things both good and bad, people and places. Season's change but those changes are ultimately for my good. For my good in that they are my preparation for purpose in bringing others to Christ.
On some level, just by reading, it may seem as though I have discovered some euphoric realm where there only exists happy sunshine and marvelous blue skies. And to be honest, that would be an inaccurate assessment of where I am attempting to convey to you where I am. A more accurate description would be that I have discovered a place in God's bosom where there is a peace that recognizes circumstances but is not dictated by them. This peace exists only in the love of God. It allows me to forgive myself and forgive others and love from places within my soul that I only recently knew existed.
It's almost unexplainable...but then it's so NOT, because it's so real!
It is because of this that I have begun to look at my relationship with my significant other with fresh and loving eyes, understanding that we have a season....how long that season will extend is determined by the Master, but if He grants us a lifetime as husband and wife or we drift apart only to find others that He has destined for us, the journey would have been for a purpose and for my good, as I firmly trust in the Bible where I read that "...all things work together for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
Falling in love with Jesus first...was the best thing I've EVER done!
And such is life...
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